Filed under: Life sucks what else is new? | Tags: 13, birthday, celebrations, teenage
You would think that finally becoming a teenager would be one of the best days of your life. I mean, you’re not at the kiddy table, you don’t order from the kids menu, and you don’t get in trouble for watching PG-13 movies; how awesome is that? Well for me, it wasn’t all that exciting. When I told my friends and my sisters that I didn’t feel any older, more mature, or not even the slightest bit special, they told me that in the inside, I had been 13 for a long time.
Now, I guess that’s a good thing and more people should act older than they are, but I wanted to feel special and I wanted to actually do stuff on my birthday. I learned that I shouldn’t get my hopes up a looong time ago, but I thought that the day I turned 13 would be different. Wrong! Actually, nothing special happened on my birthday. No friends, half of my family was there, no movie or shopping or anything. Just cake, ice cream, Chili’s, a new pair of shoes, a camera, ‘C’ sticky notes, a sharpie, mints, and some cards. Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate everything I got, and I don’t want to sound greedy, but I kinda expected to have something big happen; at least a party.
This year my actual birth day was celebrated a day before it actually was because we were too busy on my actual birthday. So my “birthday celebrating day” consisted of shopping for my sister’s desk, going to a few different stores, not going to the one I really wanted to because she didn’t want to, her getting pissed, and working on a project. Fun, right?! I totally felt like my birthday didn’t even much matter. But you know what’s wierd, I feel guilty about feeling like I didn’t matter. Is that unusual? I don’t know. I really wish I didn’t feel like this.
My 13 birthday was like no other birthday I’ve ever had. Out of the six kids in my family, only three were there; including me. Two were at college and one was/is in a totally different country. That part kind of sucked. Also, you know what sucks even more? I haven’t even had a birthday party yet. You wanna know when my birthday was? March freaking 30. It’s been exactly one month and one day since my birthday, and we haven’t done anything about it.
Filed under: Family.
AimeeCaitlinGwaltney. My best friend.
I miss you like crazyyy big sisterrr.
You need to come home, ’cause it’s kinda hard being you and Lindsey at the same time.
AimeeCait, you are the coolest, most stylish, funniest, most awesome, prettiest, and most amazing big sisterbestfriend ever. Seriously. Come home.
Filed under: Encouragment?
Beautiful.
Bethany Dillon.
I was so unique
Now I feel skin deep
I count on the make-up to cover it all
Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention
I thought I could be strong
But it’s killing me
Does someone hear my cry?
I’m dying for new life
I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful
Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me
Fighting to make the mirror happy
Trying to find whatever is missing
Won’t you help me back to glory
I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful
You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart, and I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love and beautiful
Filed under: Encouragment?
All I Need.
Bethany Dillon.
When the day is done
And there’s no one else around
While I’m lying here in bed
You’re in my heart, You’re in my head
You’re all I need, You’re all I need
There are a million voices
Calling out my name
But You’re the One I want to hear
So make the others disappear
You are all I need when I’m surrounded
You are all I need if I’m by myself
You fill me when I’m empty
There is nothing else
You’re all I need
When the morning comes
And Your mercy is renewed
There’s a fire in my bones
I’m not afraid to go alone
You’re all I need
You’re all I need
The sun on my face
I hear You whisper loud
You’re still the God that opens seas
Every flower, even me
You’re all I need
You’re all I need
I’m drawn to everything that You do
Nothing compares with You
Filed under: Things I miss about Baton Rouge.
Keepin’ It Gutta.
Just for Louisiana, and of course, Boosie.
Guh, ‘It be the same ol’ fools breaking the rules, ‘n runnin’ off at da mouth.’
That’s where it’s at.
:D:D 
Filed under: Things I miss about Baton Rouge.
Yeahhh girlll!!!
I’m missin’ my Canesssss!!
You know it, balllinnnn!!
:/ I wish Tennessee was as cool as Baton Rouge was.
Filed under: Things I miss about Baton Rouge.
I miss my Death Valley.
I miss LSU tigers.
I mean, it’s called ‘Death Valley’ for a reason.
Only because LSU is the best football team EVER.
:D
Filed under: You know itt, ballinnn!
Well, here’s how I feel right now.
I feel like crying.
like I miss Baton Rouge.
like I miss Aimee Cait, my best friend in the whole world, a whole lott.
like I miss my two - I can talk to you about anything ever - buddies.
like I miss how everything used to be.
like I miss Morgan and the Schotts.
like I miss Glasgow.
like I miss Istrouma and the youth group.
like I miss JP and Lindsey.
like I miss how everybody I knew cheered for the LSU Tigers at Death Valley.
like I miss everything I left behind.
I know I cant move back now,
But I just wanted you to know.
I wish I could, and I miss you.
I’m praying for everybody, it doesn’t matter how.
Just know I am, and let it show,
To anyone and everyone,
I really do love you to death.
Y’all are my life, and my everything.
